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Hello.
This is a poem I made for an assignment in my Health class. I had to write a letter, journal, or poem and I was to choose to write about anorexia, bulimia, or binge eating. The purpose was to be empathetic, and to put yourself in someone’s shoes with this type of problem.

I wrote about being a person that has bulimia nervosa to be exact. I definitely don’t have it in real life, but I’ve learned enough about this subject to truly be empathetic.

So, here it is:

Invisible Addiction

A distorted mirror effect disguising my reality,
The loathe I carry for an unseen beauty.

Neglecting nutrition; neglecting a life,
A consistent battle resulting in strife.

There is a significant obsession within these frail eyes,
The hoarding of food covered by lies.

I eat my feelings and purge my fears,
A self-induced struggle I’ve had for years.

The weight of depression is too heavy to confine,
I need a shoulder to lean on, a promising sign.

A lack of effort; a lack of direction,
There must have been a primary reflection.

I will recover with a past,
As long as this persistent isolation doesn’t last.

I have bulimia nervosa, and I need someone to ensure,
That there will be a cure.

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Drift in Thought

I sit here under this overcast cloud, straining for the pure of thought.

The road ahead hazing; the sickening knowledge of distraught.

Why do I feel a hole in my heart as it deprives my sanity out of reach?

I don’t want to go to the movies, nor am I in search for the beach.

I want to lock my arms around my legs where the hills line up with the sea.

Yeah, that’s where I want to be.

My memory of you fading ever so slightly.

I can’t wait for the day when I can stare at you sprightly.

Where have you been; how are you now?

Should I turn back the clock, take back a vow?

Changes are coming whether we like it or not.

My nerves are rising; you’ve hit my weak spot.

The light is flickering in this snug room.

If we don’t fix this, we’ll all be doomed.

I need a break now to figure things out;

To gather my thoughts and find a way out.

Actions may speak louder than words,

But how we word our actions have higher standards.

And as I begin to understand what I’m about to say,

Let’s stop the clock and drift away.

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The Past Has Elapsed

How do I concentrate on the future when the past is right beside me?

I am through with this nonsense. Please just let me be.

I’m content with where I stand right now.

Those ancient times must take a bow.

I’ve carried these wrongs

for far too long.

The past

has elapsed.

That irony is out of sight.

I don’t believe I’m wording this right.

You are in possession of that life I lived long ago,

but I’m different now. There isn’t one thing that I owe.

For quite a few months I was deep in thought. This is what I truly want.

I will never erase you from this hourglass,

but those antique thoughts just couldn’t last.

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Bear In Mind The Undefined

This skeletal thread is holding me high.

High off the ground, up in the sky.

Do you realize how delicate a moment can be,

when the eyes draw nearer by one degree?

I can’t always comprehend those thoughts behind that voice.

Is my approaching future within a dice?

I crave to go there, where you will stand.

I want to be capable of holding your hand.

My stomach in knots; my throat sore.

These emotions and aches are engaged in a war.

How will it be when there is no motive for the truth?

Did I ever need that wisdom tooth?

I must find the time to change the channel

and watch the burning of this candle.

I sense an upcoming bliss in the air.

There isn’t a need for repair.

The narrow path that I created back then,

Is now an avenue, a speedway, of this epic pen.

That method I had going some weeks ago, must stop immediately.

I’m done with this show.

Copyright © 2008 Kaitlyn S.